So awhile back I was put out of commission by something called vasculitus. It's sorta like an allergic reaction in that it's an auto-immune disease. I break out in hives get a fever my tendons in my joints swell and I can barely move. Not too mention the pain, as some of you know I've had a few things hit me, to my great disappointment. Sciatica, Staph, Vasculitus and Ear infections. It's practically stopping me from working out again, my 3rd attempt at really changing my life and losing excess body fat. Sadly it feels like a losing battle, even though I'm trying to fight it. So far the only thing that seems to phase this mess is steroids, but I won't be on those for the rest of my life. I know I'm having a piss party right now but I just needed to vent a bit.

Adam L. Cleghorn

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7 Things that scare you...
1. Heights
2. Yep
3. that's really
4. about it.
5. Maybe never ataining my goals?
6. but who isn't
7. No you are, at some point.

7 Things you like the most...
1. Black Women
2. Weightlifting
3. Gaming
4. Art
5. Nature
6. Music
7. Friends, they're down here cause they're the most important. They hold everything else up.

7 Important things in your room...
1. Sound System
2. Computer
3. 360
4. Bed
5. Leather Coat
6. Music, lots O' music
7. Boots, which I earned a nickname for.

7 Random facts about you...
1. I'm quite attracted to voluptuous Black women, becoming more commonly know amongst my colleagues.
2. I can lift my own body weight in many forms
3. I can leg press 1100lbs
4. I'm a conglomerate of opposites.
5. I can effectively use the nunchaku
6. I play DnD
7. Fast cars rock my socks.

7 Things you plan to do before you die...
1. Go to Germany, Scotland, and New Zealand
2. Have a wife and at least one kid, hopefully a daughter that I will so spoil. ^_^
3. Reduce my body fat below 15%
4. Bench Press my body weight
5. Sky dive or Bungie Jump. Scared of heights.
6. Restore a classic Muscle car to full form
7. Have my own home built in the mountains

7 Things that attract you to the opposite sex...
1. Intelligence
2. The ability to keep a conversation going with me, or at least not have awkward silences.
3. Strong, in will, mind, and spirit
4. Curves of appropriate size to their body.
5. Bravery in both non important and important situations.
6. A sense of Humor or at least the ability to laugh with me about things.
7. Affection, I love to give and receive affection.

7 Things you say the most...
1. FUCK!
2. GODDAMN IT!
3. GOD DAMNED MOTHER FUCKING BULLSHIT ASS FUCKING WHORE!!!!
4. I heart, "insert what i love"
5. Aye
6. Howdy
7. Maybe?

7 Celeb or NOT-REAL crushes.
1. Nope
2. I like real people
3. like the kind I can hug and kiss.
4. And think they are beautiful for being themselves.
5. And I'm so not a fan boy.
6. I mean the closest I come to that is
7. 's Iguannadon and well that more a fan of her ability to draw than a crush on the character.

7 Favorite drinks...(really??)
1. Lemonade
2. Tea
3. Water
4. Cream Soda
5. Root Beer
6. Sam Adams
7. Heinny

I need some close and very personal attention in my life. I think I deserve it. I think I've earned it through various trials and tribulations. I've walked through many fires only to find another staring at me. I need care from another, the kind of loving and caring not from one self but from another. I'm tired of being alone and despite much effort in growing acustom to it or finding someone, I've not much to show for it. It would seem my personal prefferences are meaningless and what I want doesn't have much more substance. Most things are going in favor of me, I'm cute happy with my job and in good standing with my friends and family. My health is fair and I'm working towards losing the fat I don't need. So I have to say I'm pretty content, but I can't say I'm happy. Truely I have a need to be desired by one person, not one in the sense of a specific person per se, but one person in the romantic sense. Never before have I felt like it was as good a time to want this, but still have trouble finding someone. I suppose I should learn to lower my expectations, but under the same token I think perhaps they aren't too high. Right now I just really want someone to want me and only me, to hear me, and listen, to understand me.

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So, hello all. Above is a link to the wonderous he making clothing designs, and he rocks the photoshop socks! You should check him and the designs out.

As for me, I've been trying to pick up a pencil these past few weeks, but alas I can't seem to find motivation for things anymore. I've stated writing more though, and this I'm happy about.

Naturally you should check these peeps and their art.



and of course the great one that brought me to DA

Ah friends, greeting and salutations. I would like to borrow a moment to show you the art of a friend. Check his stuff, and get him to post some more